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Gender: F
Age: 47
State: BC
Country: Canada
Experience...
I had a 2 and 1/2 year on and off reltionship with a man who was the love of my life. He ripped me off, lied to me constantly and cheated on me, probably the whole time, upon review of the evidence. He gave me herpes. I tried to forgive him and work things out, but the same old patterns seemed to continue. Whenever he was distant or couldn`t see me or call me, I had to wonder what he was up to and with whom. I don`t think he was ever in a relationship with any women where he did not cheat or rip her off, even just according to his own stories. I thought he was trying to be a better person, but he was still just an asshole. I was totally devoted to him and helped him through serious health problems, gave him expensive gifts and helped him with cash when he was broke. I actually went almost six months without him , trying to move on, but he wore me down with calls and I ended up seeing him again. He was even mroe neglectful and emotionally abusive than before, but I kept hoping things would get better. Finally, after finding other women`s accessories in his apartment and he hardly sending any time with me again, I finaly managed to break it off with him. He was very angry and said mean things to me. I still loved him , but at least I had my dignity. It has been about two months now. I still miss him terribly and not sure whether I am going t make it. I have thought of suicide a lot in the last few years, and engaged in some pretty hi risk and self-destructive behaviours. I don`t know if I wil ever stop loving him, but have to try to stay away. He has not contacted me this time, nor have I contcated him. I still wish the best for him, but need to have a relationship where I am respected, or not be in a relationship at all. My heart is so broken and I feel like the biggest damn fool ever. I have never let someone treat me this badly before. And the worst thing is that I still have such strong feelings and attraction for him. I know I am still vulnerable. I`m trying very hard. Please include me in your prayers to stay strong and never settle for a crappy relationship ever again. [548]
Gender: F
Age: 26
Country: Jamaica
Experience...
Hey you are not alone, at age 18 my family kicked me out the house. I had no where to go. I went to live with the guy i was dating after a couple of weeks. I got an outbreak, wow! i had to do a test, when i did it i had herpes. Why me? After all, i was not messing around with any and everybody. since then my life changed i felt obligated confused about weather i had it before, yet he was not angry whish i had expected him to do. Though to me life had ended, my doctor told me that things well be ok. yes ok of feeling all alone, living in denial for you know when. after living togather for 4yrs he told me to get out for another woman which i suspected he was seeing 3yrs after. It was unbereable i just stared university plus being told to i am not need. I went to school the stress causes me to have multiple breakout, i was insane i went through a major depression. My doctor told me to be focoused i tried, i am in my third year now. sometimes it seems unbelievable that i have come this far. I do not believe that i will ever be someone`s wife. I love him because he saved me from my family and encouraged me to go back to school. Now i feel hopeless i would like to have atleast 3 kids so i can find happiness.
"why me, why me?" my heart cries out for someone to just accept, love and be loyal to me. I have worked so hard yet life gets harder. [483]
Gender: F
Age: 27
State: Illinois
Country: USA
Experience...
Hey everyone. hold up. Believe me, i`ve been to hell and back when it comes to relationships, but hang in there. Take a look at yourself and how you`re being treated. If it`s not good, then get out. If it is good, enjoy it. And get up and go do something, positive, as in, not negative. Go for a walk, go to work, go to school, just go stand outside for a few minutes, just do something. Seriously. I`ve been in your state of minds, and it sucks, but you have two options. Either succumb to the crappiness going on in your life and let it take over you, or don`t. Get up and go do something. Looking back, it`s not hard to pick times where I made the good choice and I made the bad. [408]
Gender: F
Age: 44
State: NY
Country: Nassau
Experience...
I am an adoptee who had searched for my birth mother for 23 years. When I finally found my birth family, I also found my birth mother passed away 17 years before I could find her. I have been reunited with her sister, my bAunt. Anna Marie, my first mother left me a letter at the time of adoption. The adoption agency will not give it to me, or no longer has it. And after 44 years, I want it. It is a note from my first mother to her daughter. Why wasn`t I able to get in touch with her in 1981? If I wished? And if she wished? We were lost in a cover up, conspiracy NY theory that children and birth parents should not be reunited. Even if they both wish it to occur. This abuse needs to stop. So that no other adoptee misses an opportunity to meet her first mother, if both parties wish reunion. Anna Marie was diagnosed with Breast Cancer and suffered for 10 years. She was diagnosed at 37. It is not recommended to have your first mammogram until the age of 40. I found her at the age of 43. So my chances were alot higher in the event of not knowing my medical information sooner! I had the right to know this information! For monitoring. For prevention. For myself as well as my children. [404]
Gender: F
Age: 44
State: oh
Country: usa
Experience...
after 20 years of marriage my husbsand had an affair with a waitress in north carolina. i really dispise them both. worse was she had veneral die. and herpes. talk about a broken heart. my heart will never mend. i am a grandmother of 2. i am afraid to even kiss my grandkids. how could he do this to me and how could this women be such a whore. all i know is she was at the restaurant that has the word jug in the title of it. beware of her. and i tell women to beware of truck drivers. they are the worse bunch around. i not only live with the broken heart of infidelity,but herpes. i just wish i could curl up and die,but my family says they need me. i guess what doen`t kill us makes us stronger. i sometimes wish i could talk to her and ask her why. but i guess if they were both whores they don`t have any remorse or soul so their only reason why is probably "because they could". [357]
Gender: F
Age: 61
State: CA
Country: USA
Experience...
I am just heartbrken after breaking up with a man half my age! And, to tell you the truth I am considering suicide because I am so unhappy. All I do is lay around the house.
My last love interest turned out to be a total loser, and I was without a partner for years. I now find myself attracted to younger, homosexual men. In fact, my son has been dating a man I would die for! I become so sexually excited when I see them together. I can`t seem to forget the night I came home unexpectedly and found both of them in my bed performing felatio on each other. Instead of shock I was tremblling with excitement! I want this man, and I constantly think about him. Additionally, I am masterbating just about every night.
What should I do? [335]
Gender: F
Age: 14
State: TN
Country: America
Experience...
well at first i felt really dumb 4 looking on the computer 4 info. on herpes see i just found out i have herpes YESTERDAY!!!! and i am only 14 i didnt know what to do i was shocked. all i felt was why should i try try my best in school it doesnt matter any more cause i have herpes it made me feel nasty and all alone i felt like i had no reason to spend a little extra time on my make up or my hair and picking out the right outfit 2 impress the person i love i have been with hhim a year and a half now but he got in some trouble and got sent off and he cheated on me the 1st week of our relationship!!! so i thought hes gone it will never work out and maybe i dont need him so pay back came in mind and i sleep with a older guy just like the girl that wote to this website she is 15 and inspired me to share my story shes having a baby soon with her boyfrind of 2 yrs. congradulations!!!! but i wrote that in my story because i was expecting a child 2 but i lost it and i looked at it that i have the rest of my life untill the doctor said im sorry but there is no curre 4b this i broke down into tears i knew i thought i would never have a family or get married i just wanted to die but my mom was so upset and to top it all off she found out she also has hepes and has had it 4 years the drive home was the worst everbut that 15 year old gave me hope and made me want to live and know the right person is out there and i will have a family just as she is thank u for that!!!! and what i have to say to u is dont give up its not the end of the world the people u love will always bethere 4 u and will NEVER think of u diffrently and be carefull and one more thing talk 2 your kids answer there questions if my parents would have i would still have a normal life but this is just making me stonger just like all of u!!! thamks 4 reading my story [332]
Gender: F
Age: 56
State: CA
Country: USA
Experience...
I cry a lot these days. There is a man who I miss so much. I do not think I will ever get over him or stop missing him forever.
I was married for 20 years and after my divorce was single and celibate for 17 years. I met someone and got engaged, it didn`t work and I was devastated, did not think I could survive. During the next 3-4 months I cried for hours a day and then I met this man. He was married but his wife had not had sex with him in 12 years and I was so feeling unloved. Both of us were looking for some type of validation, to know we were still desirable. There was this intense immediate attraction and everything was so natural, we connected on every level, it was all so effortless, I think he may have been a true soulmate. We had a relationship, it was the most wonderful experience of my life. His wife realized that he was seeing someone and although she had told him to do so, the reality of his interest in me caused her to do everything to win him back. The gentleman and I are both intelligent, mature and professional and probably old fashioned. We knew we needed to do the right thing. He is much stronger than I or perhaps he really did not have the same level of attraction for me that I have for him. We stopped seeing each other and he is being a faithful husband. I dated even when we were seeing one another, with his knowledge of course. I have dated for almost a year since we stopped seeing one another and have had a couple of relationships that didn`t last. I would love to love and be loved but I can not find that connection. I feel like I never want to look again. I miss him so terribly and have no one to tell about this. I feel stupid for feeling this way and silly for crying over someone I can never have so I am writing about having a broken heart on this site and the tears are flowing as I type. I guess I just need to acknowledge to myself and someone out there how terribly sad I am and how much I miss this one and only special man and I always will. Thanks for reading. [326]
Gender: F
Age: 15
State: dublin
Country: ireland
Experience...
i thought i was normal but now i no that i have herpes i dont no wat to do ive been wit my boyfriend for 2 and a half years and have had sex wit him on numerous ocasions i cant tell my mom i had them and as i was his first to do everything i no i didnt get them off him and 1 year ago i had sex wit a 19 year old boy with out usin protection and after that i was told tat he has this diese i thiught it was a joke or jealousy but now i no and i dont no how to tell my boyfriend as we are expecting a baby in 6 mouths please help me i want to dye [282]
Gender: F
Age: 38
State: GA
Country: USA
Experience...
I`VE BEEN INVOLVED WITH MY HUSBAND FOR A TOTAL OF 13 YEARS. DATED 10 YEARS AND MARRIED FOR 3. EVERYTHING WAS GREAT FROM THE BEGINNING AND IT WAS LIKE HE WAS MY BEST FRIEND. THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN HE BEGAN TO COMMIT CRIMES IN ORDER TO SUPPORT HIS DRUG HABITS WHICH LED TO HIM SERVING TIME IN PRISON.UPON HIS RELEASE WE REKINDLED THE LOVE WE SHARED AND IT SEEMED AS THOUGH THINGS WERE BACK TO NORMAL,BUT TO MY SURPRISE HE ENDED UP MOVING OUT OF OUR HOME IN ORDER TO LIVE WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND WHOM I KNEW NOTHING ABOUT. AFTER 2 MONTHS OF SEPARATION HE INSISTED ON MOVING BACK HOME TO WORK THINGS OUT. ONCE AGAIN THINGS WERE FINE FOR ABOUT 11 MONTHS AND NOW WE ARE BACK TO SQUARE ONE WHERE HE`S BACK TO STAYING OUT FOR DAYS AT AT TIME,USING DRUGS AGAIN AND TO TOP IT OFF HE`S UMEMPLOYED AND MOST OF THE FINANCIAL OBLIGATIONS ARE LEFT ON ME ALOMG WITH NO TYPE OF MORAL SUPPORT FROM HIM.THERE ARE EVEN RUMORS THAT HE`S BEEN SPOTTED PICKING UP A KNOWN PROSTITUTE IN OUR TOWN.IN SPITE OF ALL WE`VE GONE THROUGH I STILL LOVE AND CARE FOR HIM AND I PRAY DAILY THAT OUR MARRIAGE SURVIVES.AM I CRAZY FOR LOVING MY HUSBAND UNCONDITIONALLY? IF ANYONE READS THIS AND CAN HELP TO SHED SOME LIGHT ON THIS SITUATION PLEASE RESPOND.I AM DESPERATE TO RELATE TO SOMEONE ELSE WHO CAN UNDERSTAND WHERE I AM COMING FROM. [265]
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